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To all my followers and readers of my blog I just want to thank you for talking the time to read my post especially those of you kind enough to leave comments.

I have not put up a new post in quite a long time I know. I cannot promise you that I will start up again soon but I do thank you for taking to time to check in with me. Remember that you can always leave me messages at blogcatalog I check them regularly.

Thank you again please stay in touch.

Maybe It's Me

I was remembering this show on The WB called "Maybe It's Me." Its a comedy show about a young girl who thinks her family is dysfunctional but in every episode she realized that compared to other families or other people they are actually quite normal, so she is left wondering if maybe she is the dysfunctional one.

Remembering that show, a favorite of mine, made me start to think about my self and it made me ask myself the same question may be it's me?
I have had several relationships in the past all of which have failed for one reason or another. One of these relationships started many years ago about 8 years to be exact and it was on and off, nothing ever really became of it she chose to move on with some one else and when that did not work for her we tried to start something again but failed. I tried everything to make that relationship work, everything including a proposal not a very good one I will admit but one that came from the heart, I really should have put more thought into it but I did not have much time she was slipping from my hands and I felt I had to do something, I know she deserved better but again I did not have much time she was all ready to leave.
Later on I had another serious relationship with a great girl! The relationship was a great ride until the very end. We dated for 3 years straight I meet all her family she meet mine, we traveled together, we purchased things together, we were inseparable. I learned from my mistakes so when it came time to propose to her I did it right but as the month leading on passed I realized I was making a mistake, or at least I though I was, for many many many reason I deiced to break off the engagement. That one decision had become the biggest hugest colossal biggest regret of my life, they say that you don't know what you have until you lose it! I know that from first had experience, I would try everything to make that mistake right but she just would not hear me out and I did not blame her in her shoes I would have treated me like crap, she never did though.
Other than those 2 I have had 3 other relationship that also failed for many different reasons I ended one because we were not on the same page, she ended another because I was not really over some one else I still regretted my decision I made in a past relationship, and the last was just lust and when that was gone so were the 2 of us. I had my very first girlfriend when I was 11 years old and recently I have gone through a break up.

Over all the years I have never had a good relationship! Ever! Looking back all my past relationships have failed for one reason or another I have had many relationship and none of them have worked! I don't get it? What is it about me that attracts these women that just are not right for me, all the women that have come in my door have left going out my door the same way they came in. Some have left me heart broken, some have left me on good term, some have gone out like thunder.

All this leads me back to the beginning. Maybe it's me? May be I have not been up to par, may be I have not done what I could have. All I know is that here I am, apparently I have all the qualities that make up a great man! I am funny, charming, romantic, sweet, I have a great sense of fashion, and I am fit and healthy. But here I am alone, single, and with no real prospects I mean am I destined to live a life of sin and never attain a stable relationship?

Maybe It's Me? May be it's them? Who knows.

Lost My Blackberry

I lost my Blackberry on March 6, 2010. I just hope that the person who finds it will have the heart to return it to me. I miss it dearly!

I guess I really never realize how dependant on the Blackberry I am until I lost it right now. I am going crazy with out it. Its just a piece of technology but I am so dependant on it! I don't even know why?

Miss my BB like crazy!

Canada vs. USA

What an upset tonight at the Vancouver 2010 Winter Olympic Games! The Hockey game of the year! Team Canada lost to team USA 5-3, it was a close game till the very end! I really thought that Canada had this one in the bag but the Americans just wanted it more I guess.

Now it's a long road for Team Canada and Gold is out of the question, I am disappointed in the Canadian Men's Hockey but at the same time I know we were all just too proud!

I still have a medal hope but we will see which colour.

My Life

Wow lately I have felt like my life is just going in 100 different directions. I have neven been so busy in all my life. I have so many jobs, small work related task that wake me as early as 7:00am and I am not a morning person then keep me up as late es 3:00am! Most days I am running on 4 to 5 hours worth of sleep, I love to sleep so I am not sure how much more of this I can take.

There are a few decision that I have to take right now in my life that will drastically affect my future. I am praying to God I make the right decision so they don't come back to haunt me in the future.

Why is that your heart and your brain always tell you 2 different things! When it come to love and relationships I listen to my heart, but now I must consider what my brain is saying. Although there is love there are also complications what to do? I know what I want but at the same time I know what I need, I what I can get and I know what I deserve. So here I am trying to make a huge major life decision what to do? What to do? If only things were different but like the old saying says "if, ifs and buts, were candy and nuts oh what a party we would have!" If only but not really. I could just let my brain make this decision but then my heart would suffer or I could let my heart make this decision but then my brain would never leave me alone.

I don't just want to take a risk because I don't feel I should be taking risks with a relationship. There should not be any risk, you should just know in your heart that it's right and your brain should agree. This should be the easiest decision that I need to make. This should be easy, simple, obvious, and straight forward then why is it every thing but that? I don't get it God help me! Because no matter what choice I make I will hurt more than one person, some really deep.

God help me!

Gold For Canada!

GOLD!!!!!!!

Canada's firt gold medal comes on day 3 of the 2010 Winter Olympic Games in Vancouver. It is delivered by Alex Bilodeau of Quebec in the Men's Moguls. I belive that it is the first gold medal for Canada of many to come!

Kick Ass Canada! Kick Ass!

My Proud Monent

Today, February 12th, was the opening ceremonies of the 21th Winter Olympic games Hosted by Canada in Vancouver, Whistler, and Richmond in the beautiful province of British Columbia. This was such a proud moment for me as my country host the Olympics! The Opening Ceremonies were a blast! An honour to watch! I am so proud to be Canadian and to have my beautiful country play host to the Winter Olympics.

I will be cheering my heart out for all my athletes I hope that Canada takes every gold medal possible. So watch out Canada is going to make history!

Kick ass Canada, kick ass!

Weather

What is with the weather lately? There has been so many polar opposite of climate change around the world. Like high snowfall, cold fronts in one place and heat waves in another place. When in one are of the world there is a lack of water in another place there are floods.

The planets climate is definitely changing and the signs are obvious. I am not sure that I believe in this whole "green" movement that governments are pushing on people but I do think that the climate is changing in our world. I am not sure how much we can help to minimize the changes but I guess there is no harm in trying when ever possible.

Whistler 2010

My home land was chosen to host the Winter Olympic Games this year in Whistler, British Columbia, Canada. I am an exited Canadian and a proud supporter of our home athlete. I know that they will make us all proud! This is not the first time Canada host the Olympic games so that gives Canada and edge!

I hope that Canada takes as many gold medals as possible but more so in the Men's and Women's Hockey. So we can show the world how we play our game and that no one will beat us at our game in our house!

Go Canada!

Alcohol? How much is too much!

So I have been doing so research on the art of drinking in order to find out how to be a better person but more important so I don't kill my self.

Well it seems that there are a number of thing you can do to control your intake of alcohol on a night out of drinking.
- The number 1 recommended tip is "Stay Hydrated" alcohol actually dehydrates your body so you feel thirsty and want to drink more but make sure that you drink water to keep your body hydrated.
- Second is to pace yourself, don't drink to much to quickly. If your out with friend, at a party, or even if your drinking alone at home, take your time. You will spend less at the bar and your intoxication level will increase gradually.
- Third mix it up! Don't just drink beer after beer branch out and try something different mixed drinks work best, they are mixed with some other form on no-alcoholic beverage that can help keep you hydrated. If your going to do shoots remember to pace yourself there is no need to do 10 shoots in a row.
- Fourth remember (especially if your out with friends) to socialize have fun, go crazy if you like the whole point of going out in the town is to have fun!

After everything I hope that this has helped because a great night out usually means a bad morning so the last tip is plan for the next morning. The effects of all the alcohol consumed will be felt the most the morning after, stay tuned because I have some great tips that have worked for me. I am sure you all have your hangover tips and cures as we all do.

Nap Time?

Hey what ever happen to nap time? Remember back in kindergarten when after lunch you could go to sleep for like an hour then you would wake up for recess or just sleep through recess like me. I miss those days I could really use a nap right about now.

Did you know that in some part of Mexico and Spain they practice this thing called a "Siesta" where you take a nap in the middle of the day. Also there have been studies that prove taking a nap during the day raises your productivity and over all alertness. This proves it we actually need a short break during the day to be able to get through the day, we need to bring back nap time!

If your with me say "I"!

I'm A Winner!

I have always been a cynical man, I don't really believe in fairy tales, happy endings, fate, destiny, or any of that other crap!

I believe life is what you make of it all that ever counts is what we do, what we do is what makes us, and what makes us is what defines us. I have always tried to make my life better, to make choices that define me as a person. I have made mistakes in my life like everyone else but to error is human and to forgive divine right?
Sometimes in life you make choices that cause pain to others, you have to take because no one is just going to hand you things for free. Life is never fair and only the strong survive, if you want happiness you have to take it, if you want success you have to find it and take it, whatever you want in life you have to go out and take it even if this means you will hurt someone in the process. This life if made up of the haves and the have nots, winners and loosers.

Which one are you?

My Dream Job

I have truly been blessed when it comes to employment. Right after a graduated university I landed my dream job working for a large corporation. I was self employed and the large corporation bought my little company and I was kept as a high level company officer. This job would lead me to work for a foreign company, I got to travel, had my own expense account, and personal assistants. Life could not be better, the job afforded me many luxuries like the latest cell phones, best technological gadgets, name brand fashion, new cars sometimes 2 and 3 of them at one time, my own travel expense card, but the best thing of all was the "friends". I was making lots of contacts with in Canada and abroad, I meet some high ranking government officials, business leaders, and up-and-coming go getter's that now have dream jobs of their own.

Finally we come to now. My dream job took me away from home to a foreign country. A beautiful warm place with lots of beaches, amazing scenery, where the food is just exceptional! The people are so down to earth and as warm as the weather, there are brands of cars here I have never even heard of OMG! The car market alone was worth moving here. Now I know I am making this place sound like paradise it's just that I love it here. Come visit!

However, I have decided that I need a change so I am going back to my home town where it all started. I want to come home and work in my country(Canada) earn some money and may be pay some taxes. I hope this journey keeps going because I believe the best is yet to come.

New, New

Well it's been a long time since my last post I know. But I have taken a new life and a new job in the hopes that it helps me to forget my old life and where I used to live. I am still unsure how long I wish to stay here or if I am even staying here, I do miss my home.
If and when I do return to my hometown, Toronto, Canada I hope I can start fresh again.