Wow lately I have felt like my life is just going in 100 different directions. I have neven been so busy in all my life. I have so many jobs, small work related task that wake me as early as 7:00am and I am not a morning person then keep me up as late es 3:00am! Most days I am running on 4 to 5 hours worth of sleep, I love to sleep so I am not sure how much more of this I can take.
There are a few decision that I have to take right now in my life that will drastically affect my future. I am praying to God I make the right decision so they don't come back to haunt me in the future.
Why is that your heart and your brain always tell you 2 different things! When it come to love and relationships I listen to my heart, but now I must consider what my brain is saying. Although there is love there are also complications what to do? I know what I want but at the same time I know what I need, I what I can get and I know what I deserve. So here I am trying to make a huge major life decision what to do? What to do? If only things were different but like the old saying says "if, ifs and buts, were candy and nuts oh what a party we would have!" If only but not really. I could just let my brain make this decision but then my heart would suffer or I could let my heart make this decision but then my brain would never leave me alone.
I don't just want to take a risk because I don't feel I should be taking risks with a relationship. There should not be any risk, you should just know in your heart that it's right and your brain should agree. This should be the easiest decision that I need to make. This should be easy, simple, obvious, and straight forward then why is it every thing but that? I don't get it God help me! Because no matter what choice I make I will hurt more than one person, some really deep.
God help me!
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